Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Chapter 4: One Last Look

Chapter 4: One Last Look
“How much farther?” Demitri moaned. We had switched places after we passed Seattle an hour earlier, so I was now leading him. It didn’t feel right, showing him where I lived, but I couldn’t avoid it; he had been ordered never to let me out of his sight except for when I was in the house.

“Not much farther.” I sniffed, and the myriad of scents hit me like a bulldozer. I focused on the trail I was following; all our family, mixed together, but with Edward, Nessie, Jacob and I strongest and most prominent. “Can you smell that?” I called to him, “We’re almost there.”

He just huffed and continued to follow me.
About five minutes later, we reached the little clearing of the cottage. I could see the confusion on Demitri’s face.

“What is it?” I asked.

“I thought you all lived together closer to town. This place looks like it could barley hold one person, let alone nine, and we’re miles from the trails.”

I sighed and jumped down from the trees. There was no sound of movement inside; no one was in.

“We don’t all live here,” I corrected him. “This is just for our little family; just me and Renesmee and Edward.”

“Oh.” he seemed startled. I sighed again and went to the door. It was unlocked.

“Wait here,” I told him sternly, “I won’t be long.”
Once inside I took a moment to breath in the scents, committing them to memory. Then I hurried down the corridor to our bedroom. I pulled the smallest of the four suitcases off of the top shelf in the closet and began to pack some of the more sensible things in my clothing collection. I skipped over most of the white garment bags and their various silk and satin occupants, opting instead for jeans and plain cotton shirts. I was sure Aro would decide to treat me to some new clothes anyway, so what was the point in packing tons of stuff I wouldn’t wear.

I took only one bag down. Slightly greyer than the others, and still smelling faintly of Charlie’s house, the bag containing my wedding dress stood out from the others, largely because it had a rack all to itself and a big white ribbon tied round the hanger. I folded it carefully into the case, and then moved on to the living room.

I took all my books off the shelf, leaving only a much abused Romeo and Juliet behind. Going to the bottom shelf, I took out three books from the stack of photo albums.

One was my old scrapbook, finished off with graduation photos alongside the snapshots from September. I had of course replaced all the pictures Edward had taken out once he returned them to me.

The second was a small, one picture per page album of wedding photos.

Last was Nessie’s baby book. It was stuffed with three years worth of photos, which had actually been taken over six months. Every phase of her childhood was in there, along with lots of pictures of the rest of the family, including me. My favourite page was one titled ‘The First Time I Met Daddy’, which had four pictures of Edward holding Nessie when she was only a day old.

I slipped the photos into the top flap of the case and zipped it shut. Now came the hard part.

Aro had sent me back to my room to wait for Demitri, and I had used the time to write a short letter. I took it out of my pocket and read it over one last time.

Edward,
I am so, so sorry. I will never forgive myself for what I am doing, but I don’t have a choice.
It’s the Volturi. They found out about Charlie. Jane caught me leaving Tanya’s, and she says that just showing myself to him is breaking the rules. They were going to kill him, unless I joined them. I don’t want to, but I can’t let him be hurt because of me.
I wish there was another way, but I can’t see it. We can’t protect him without really revealing ourselves, and we can’t fight them alone. There is no choice, no alternative.
I will miss you, all of you, with all my heart. I will be thinking of you every second.
Look after yourself. For Nessie; she needs you. And for me.
I love you. Forever. Never forget that.
Goodbye my love.
Bella

I sealed the letter into its envelope, along with a short note for Nessie.

Renesmee,
I am very sorry that I have to go away. I don’t know when I will come back, or if I will come back at all, but I don’t want you to be unhappy. You have to be strong.
Look after Daddy for me. You are all he has left now.
Never forget; wherever I am, however long we are apart, we will always be together in our hearts.
I love you, my little nudger.
Mommy

I propped the envelope up on the fire place, then heaved the suitcase off the floor and took one last look around my home. Then I walked out, closed the door, and turned my back on Bella Cullen.

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