Wednesday, 26 October 2011

Chapter 7: Marcus

Chapter 7: Marcus
A few days after our return to Volterra, I was summoned by Aro.

“You wanted me Master?”
He smiled at me sweetly.

“Yes,” he said. “I wanted to speak to you about your mission.”

I had a feeling this was coming. “I’m sorry if I disappointed you Master.” I whispered, looking at the tiled floor beneath my feet.

Aro laughed, which confused me. I thought he would want to punish me for not doing the job I was sent to do, and for running away. Apparently that wasn’t the case.

“I am not angry with you Isabella. You showed excellent leadership skills, and, considering your past, it is an achievement that you went in at all.” He smiled at me.

“I have decided to give you a very great honour; a promotion if you will.”

“I live to serve Master,” I answered obediently. “Whatever you ask, I will obey.”

His smile softened. “Of course you will.” He got up and began to pace. “I have noticed that Marcus has been a little down lately. I think it is because he lacks a female companion.” Aro looked me in the eye. “You will be that companion.”

I blanched. “Me?”

He laughed softly. “Yes, you. You are exactly what he needs; young, intelligent, and beautiful. You will put some life back into him.”

I was in shock. Aro wanted me to be a companion to Marcus. My mind spun, trying to figure out everything that this would entail.

As if he could read my mind, Aro spoke.

“With regards to your standing here, you will no longer interact with the other guard members on a personal level.”

Not that I did that so much before; but I would miss talking to Chelsea.

“You will mostly be with Marcus. You will answer to him, and obey his every command. The wives are no longer off limits; in fact, you will be joining them, to a certain extent. You are no longer required to take part in missions or training. You will stay here in the tower. Understood?”

“Yes Master.”

“Good!” he smiled at me. “Come here. Let’s get you out of that old cloak.”

I approached him with as much confidence as I could muster, untying the strings of my cloak as I went. He moved behind me, pulling it off my shoulders. For a moment, it was as if more than just the weight of the material had been lifted from my shoulders.

Then he put my new cloak on me. It was thick velvet and pure black. It felt very heavy, though of course it wasn’t. Aro tied the strings, then stepped back to look at me.

“It suits you,” he sighed. Then he smiled widely. “Off you go now. Marcus will be in to see you shortly.”

I bowed deeply, thanking him for this honour, and retreated to my turret room.

I had had very little time to myself over the last few weeks; but every so often, there would be uninterrupted periods when I could wallow in self pity and let my feelings wash over me.

At these times, I would take of my cloak, pull out the albums and look at pictures. When things were really bad, I would look at the picture of Edward on the first page of my scrapbook and talk to it, imagining I was telling him all my troubles, and daydreaming about the things he would say to make it all better.

Today I took out Nessie’s baby book and started flipping through the pages, stroking my fingers across the pictures, letting my sobs flow freely. I had been here a month now. Even the most recent pictures would be out of date. My little girl was growing up, and I wasn’t there to see it.

The light knock on my door made me jump, and I hurriedly pushed the book away.

The door opened, and Marcus entered, closing it behind him before turning to look at me. I stood up hurriedly and bowed. “Master.”

He scoffed. “You know I really hate that. Just call me Marcus, please.”

I almost smiled; he sounded like a whiny teenager.

All of a sudden, his cool finger lifted my chin, making me look him in the eye.

“Have you been crying Isabella?” he asked, and I was surprised by the concern in his voice.

“N-no.” I tried to shake my head, but he held my chin tight.

“Yes you have.” Why was everyone set on proving me wrong? “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing Mas-Marcus. Really, it’s nothing.”

He frowned. “I don’t believe you.”

I sighed and pulled myself away from him, plopping down on the bed and staring at my shoes.

Unexpectedly, he sat down next to me. “You can tell me anything Isabella. I know Aro expects you to make me happy, but really, I could never care for anyone that way again, so there’s no point in trying.”

I looked up. “Again?”

“I had a wife too,” he sighed. “Once. Her name was Didyme. She was lost many centuries ago, during our squabbles with the Romanians. I’ve never really gotten over it.” He turned to face me, sadness in his milky eyes. “She was everything to me; my whole universe. Athenadora, Sulpicia; they are drawn to the others by their power. But what Didyme and I shared... it was true love Isabella. I know you can understand that.”

His eyes begged for my acceptance, and I was a little taken aback. I hadn’t expected any of them to be capable of feeling that way, and yet here was Marcus, baring everything to me, just some girl who he barely knew.

That was when I decided something that changed my life in Volterra for good.

He had showed me his soul; I would show him mine.

I pulled the album I had been looking at out from under my bed, along with the others. He looked at me curiously.

“I brought these with me from home. They’re pictures from my past. You can look at them if you want. Or I could show them to you.” I looked at him, holding my hand out to the books; letting him decide.

Marcus picked up the top book- the little wedding album- and opened it up so that it rested between us, one cover on each of our knees.

“Why don’t you show me? I’ll only be asking a million questions otherwise.”

I smiled and turned over the blank first page.

“This is from our wedding. Alice collected up all the best pictures from various people and put them in here for our anniversary.”

We spent the rest of the evening, and most of the night, looking through pictures. I got more and more animated as we went through, telling funny stories that went with a few of the pictures. Marcus seemed so interested, it compelled me to continue, not worrying that I was boring him. It reminded me of Edward’s two day interrogation when we first got together.

Over the next few days, Marcus and I continued to build our relationship. We talked about everything; but mostly about our pasts. He told me what little he could remember about the two decades ‘BA’ (Before Aro), and all about his happy years with Didyme. I told him about Jake and Charlie and Renee and Phil, and all the crazy things my family did, and how much I missed Edward. I even told him about our time apart after my disastrous birthday; something I had never gone in to detail about with anyone.

About a week after I became his companion, Marcus gave me a beautiful jewelled hair slide from his personal collection, and I showed him my wedding dress. We came to trust each other, and I was almost happy with him.

My past was becoming closer, but also more distant. It was a world of stories and fiction, just something I talked about.

Until two months after I joined the Volturi, when reality decided to make itself known.

Wednesday, 19 October 2011

Chapter 6: Mission

Chapter 6: Mission

One thing could be said about Aro; he was a man true to his word. Two days after he made his promise, one of the lower guard members knocked nervously on my door and handed me a blood bag - the kind you get in hospitals for transfusions - and a large silver goblet. The cup had a raised engraving on it of two dragons, curled around each other, with glinting ruby eyes set into the metal. I split the bag open, reeling at the scent that filled the room, and poured it out into the cup. Then I set it on my dresser, sat down, and stared at my reflection.

My eyes had been gold for a good year now. I still wore contacts around Charlie, not wanting to give him too much to cope with, as we were easing him into the idea of Renesmee talking. Thinking of those first few months, the blazing red eyes, then the dull amber, I couldn’t help mentally calculating how long it would take to get my eyes the way they were now. I banished that thought immediately. There was no going back. My old life was behind me. This was the final piece of the puzzle; the final brick in the wall that separated Bella Cullen from Isabella, Volturi soldier.

Summoning up all my courage, I lifted the cup in both hands, closed my eyes... and put it to my lips. The smell, so close to my nose, made my throat burn uncontrollably, and I tried to swallow to calm it. The angle I had the cup at meant that my gulp tipped the first drops onto my tongue.

Oh!

It was exquisite, like nothing I had ever tasted. I instantly wanted more. A very small part of my head, the part still clinging to the person I used to be, screamed, disgusted and horrified.
I ignored that little voice, swallowing greedily, feeling the hot, wet liquid sooth my throat the way nothing had ever soothed it before. Only when I was sure I had swallowed every last drop did I put the cup down and open my eyes.
They blazed crimson. They had never been this bright before. Ever. Not even when I had only just woken up. I felt the power singing through my limbs, humming like electricity, increasing my waning strength tenfold. I flexed my fingers and stretched my arms out, marvelling at the feeling.

A soft tap on my door startled me.
“C-come in!” I called, trying to calm down.
Aro put his head around the door. “Ah! You have fed!” He smiled at me, his face unexpectedly warm. I smiled back.
“Thank you Master. So much. It’s perfect, just what I need.”
His smile grew wider and he entered the room. “How do you feel?”
I considered that for half a second.
“It’s so... different. I’ve never felt so strong before. I feel like...like I can do anything.” I smiled. It was an odd feeling, certainly, but it wasn’t unpleasant.
Aro looked almost smug; satisfaction radiated from him in waves.
“Come,” he said, holding out his hand to me. “It’s time for your first training session.”
***

Training was a fairly simple affair. Each guard member had a different regime, though they sometimes worked in pairs if they were similar. I was paired with Felix and Alec. Felix did the physical side of my sessions, the fighting, building on what little I already knew. I briefly imagined the smug look that would undoubtedly have been on Emmett’s face if he were here, because after my first lesson Felix commented, “Those Cullens are weird, but I have to admit, they gave you a pretty good foundation.” Apparently, the basic knowledge I had picked up in December was just the ground works, but it was good, and that made it easier for Felix to build up to more complicated things. I progressed quickly, and Caius took to watching me practise whenever he could, a mysterious glint in his eyes, almost as if he could imagine the possibilities when I was really good.

With Alec, I worked on my shield. This training was done in the presence of all three ancients, along with ten or so other guard members, including Jane, Demitri, Christiano and Chelsea, who had managed to coax me out of my room. She was my friend, and I spent a lot of time with her.
We started with the basics. My first time, I just stood in the centre of the room, my shield stretched out a few feet, and described the feeling of each of the offensive mental talents to Aro. Then they tested my extension. Alec filled the room with his paralysing mist, and I had to stretch my shield as far and as precisely as I could, covering every person in the room without including Alec or leaving any gaps. This was a bit of a challenge, but after a few weeks I could do it in seconds. I always aimed for the ancients first, because Aro liked to watch the stretch and power of the shield; the way the mist seemed to roll backwards as I pushed for the next person; the reaction of the ones I protected, their eyes blinking as they came back to reality. He came and stood next to me and asked me what it felt like.
“Like elastic Master, stretched out tight. It was hard at first, but I practised a lot, and it’s much easier to stretch now.”
“And the others?”
“I don’t quite understand Master.”
“What do they feel like, the people you shield?”
I thought for a moment before answering.
“Like bright spots of light. They are glowing beacons; extensions of my self, almost. It’s like a... a sixth sense. I can feel the people inside my shield; feel the minds I am protecting.”
Aro smiled, and went back to his seat, looking thoughtful.

It continued like this for about a week. Then, one day, Aro asked me to stay behind after my session with Alec.
“I was wondering Isabella,” he said, eyeing me speculatively. “Have you ever done anything else with your shield? It seems so powerful; you must be able to do more than stretch it.”
“I don’t know Master,” I answered honestly, “I haven’t really had that much practise. I know I can make it thicker, but that’s about it.”
He pursed his white lips. “I don’t know. Something tells me you can do more.”
I gnawed on my lip for a moment. Then I bowed my head. “I am sorry Master. I have not been truthful.”
Suddenly, he was right there, lifting my chin to look me in the eye. “What have you kept, child?” he asked, his voice sounding just as pleasant as before.
“I can do something else with my shield, though I haven’t had much practise, and I’m not very good at it.”
He looked fascinated. “What is it?”
I took a deep breath. “Well, when I was working on it last December, Zafrina tried teaching me how to push it away altogether, to strengthen me. I didn’t do very well until after our encounter in the clearing, because that was when I really came to understand my shield properly. I haven’t done it much, and it’s much more difficult than just stretching out and protecting other people.”
Aro was staring at me, an eager glint in his eyes. “Can you try it now?”
I bit my lip again. “I can try. It takes a lot of concentration. The only time I ever do it right is with E-Edward.” I stuttered a little on his name.
Aro held his hand out to me. “Just try. That’s all I ask.”
I hesitated for a moment, and then put my hand in his. He held it tightly, gripping it with both hands so our palms touched. I could feel every detail of his powdery skin. As a human I had thought it like shale. Now it felt like wet sand that had dried out and stuck in the shape of a man; grainy, but solid.

I closed my eyes and focused. This was harder than usual, because I didn’t have the motivation of trying to show Edward how much I loved him. But I made a very great effort and pushed my shield away. I heard Aro sigh, but I ignored it. I could already feel the elastic pull, the resistance trying to snap the shield back. I had to be totally focused if I wanted to hold it for any length of time.

I don’t know how long we stood there, but, out of nowhere, a loud bang broke my concentration. My shield snapped back and my eyes opened wide. Aro dropped my hand as Caius came in, his face a mask of pure fury, with a frightened looking Christiano trailing behind him.

“Why, brother, what has you so angry?” Aro asked, his tone polite. I folded my hands in front of me and went to stand beside Christiano, letting Caius take my place beside Aro.
Caius seemed too furious to speak. He just stuck his hand out for Aro to take. After a moment, Aro released him. His face looked troubled.
“Is this true Christiano?” he asked. “Is this what you saw?”
“Yes Master,” Christiano answered.
“Then we have a very serious problem.” He eyed me for a moment, and then seemed to make up his mind about something. “Christiano, you, Isabella, and Demitri will deal with this. Fill them in on the way there. Go, now.”
Christiano and I bowed, before he pulled me hurriedly from the room.
***

“So, what are we dealing with here?” Demitri asked, his tone all business, like we were discussing a change in the stock market, or a new investor in a large company.
The three of us were racing through the dark countryside, heading for a little tourist town in Oregon, right on the west coast.
Christiano looked very serious. “Fairly straightforward, on the surface. Vampire woman, human partner, she’s told him everything.”
“Why does that take three to deal with?” I wondered idly. My stomach was churning at the thought of enforcing the law. I would much rather have stayed in Volterra.
“Because it doesn’t end there.” Christiano replied, frowning. “The man wanted a child; a son to be his heir. When he found out his ‘angel’ couldn’t give him one, he demanded she do something about it. Her idea of solving the problem was to create an immortal child.”
Demitri hissed. I couldn’t speak.
Immortal children were taboo. No one made them any more. If people in the town had seen this child, if it had hurt people... I didn’t even want to think about it.
“What do we do?” I whispered.
It was Demitri who answered. “We go in, we get rid of the woman, the child, and any humans who have seen them. We do it quickly, without unnecessary violence. Can we assume she is a lone wanderer?” He turned to Christiano, who nodded.
“If she had a coven, they’re long gone by now.”
I listened to them with only half my concentration. The other half was trying to prepare itself for what was about to happen. Because this was going to involve death, in some form, and it was very likely humans who were going to pay most of the price. In the back of my head, I was trying to come up with ways to avoid a slaughter.

When we reached the house where the vampire woman lived, we slowed down to barely human speed, keeping as quiet as possible. We all listened.
There was the sound of a human heart beat on the second floor, slow with peaceful sleep.
On the first floor, a soft, syrupy voice was singing softly; a lullaby, so sweet it made my still heart ache. Behind the singing, a baby cooed softly.
Demitri knocked lightly on the door.
“Come in!” the voice called, before returning to her singing.
Demitri glanced at Christiano as he opened the door. I saw Christiano mouth “Sarah,” and realised that Demitri had been silently asking the woman’s name.

We walked down the short hallway to the living room. The boys looked at me. Apparently, I would be the leader. I took a deep breath to compose myself, and then nodded. They moved to take my flanks, and we rounded the corner.

Sarah sat in a rocking chair by an open fire facing us, a blanket wrapped bundle in her arms. She looked up as we entered, and froze instantly.
“Who are you?” she asked, her voice hard; but she was obviously terrified.
“I am Isabella,” I said, putting on a sugary sweet voice and imagining how Jane would do this. “And this is Christiano and Demitri.”
“What do you want?” Sarah hissed, her hands tightening around the bundle.
“I think you know what we want.” I sneered. The boys chuckled. “You have been a very bad girl Sarah. A very bad girl indeed.”
“I don’t know what you mean,” she said, expression defensive, eyes afraid.
“Don’t play dumb with us,” Demitri hissed menacingly, taking a step forward. “We know what you’ve done.”
“I don’t know what you mean,” Sarah repeated, eyes suddenly on the floor, tone dead.
“Where did the baby come from Sarah?” I asked, sounding innocent and threatening at the same time. Christiano snickered. Sarah began to shake.
“And the man upstairs? The one who knows all about us? What did you think, that we were just going to ignore this? That we wouldn’t find out? That was very silly of you.” I smirked. “We always find out.”
The boys moved so they were in front of me. “And we never give second chances,” they hissed in unison.

Sarah began to sob, clutching the little vampire to her chest so tightly it began to howl. Christiano and Demitri moved steadily forward, hiding her from my view.

Then the screams began.

The metallic screeching of Sarah and the baby filled my ears and my mind. It bounced off the walls and brought the human racing down the stairs. I turned and smirked at him, watching his horrified expression as he took in the huddle in the living room.
He raced past me, not even seeming to care that I was there. I let him go. The boys would take care of him.
I didn’t turn, but his scream joined the others. The smell of incense filled the house as the vampires burned, mixed with the man’s blood in an intoxicating horrific mist.

That scent brought the gravity of the situation crashing down on me. I whirled, just in time to see the mangled remains of the baby crumble into ash.

I had to get out of there.
I didn’t think, I just turned and ran; through the kitchen, out the back door and into the trees at the edge of the lawn.
I was paying so little attention to my surroundings, I didn’t see the blur of white skin and black hair until it smacked into me, knocking us both to the ground with a resounding BOOM. I sprang up, intending to continue on my path, but I was stopped in my tracks by a horribly familiar voice.
“Bella?” Alice asked, her voice no more than a whisper.
I didn’t move. I didn’t turn. I just stood still as I listened to Alice picking herself up off the forest floor.
“Bella, is that you?” Her hand grasped my wrist, but I shook it off.
“No.” I said coldly.
Alice took a deep breath and grabbed my wrist again.
“Yes it is. You’re Bella. You’re my sister. You’re-”
“NO!” I yelled, cutting her off. “Bella Cullen is dead; she doesn’t exist any more.”
I turned to face her, my eyes boring into hers. “I am Isabella.”
Alice gasped, releasing my wrist, just as Demitri and Christiano barrelled into the little clearing.
“Shorty here bothering you Isabella?” Christiano asked.
I turned my nose up, still staring at Alice.
“No,” I said, my voice dead. “She just got in my way.”
Demitri sneered. “She had better apologise then.” He stepped towards her. “Well Cullen? We’re waiting.”
Alice looked at the ground. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, “I should have been looking where I was going.”
“Apology accepted.” I replied, my voice still cold and dead.
I turned to Demitri. “Are you finished?”
He nodded.
“Then we must be on our way.”

I turned for the trees.
“Bella, wait!” Alice choked.
I paused, looking at her from the corner of my eye. She took it as permission to speak.
“Please come home Bella. Nothing’s the same since you left. No one smiles any more; Nessie cries all the time, and Edward won’t leave his room. We miss you Bella. Please... please come back.”
I turned to face her fully.
“Goodbye Alice.” I said, my voice ringing with unspoken words, my eyes pleading for her understanding.
And then I darted into the trees with Demitri and Christiano on either side of me, trying to ignore the choked sobs coming from behind me, and stop my own from breaking loose.

Thursday, 13 October 2011

Chapter 5: Feeding Time

Chapter 5: Feeding Time
When we got back to Volterra, I shut myself up in my room to unpack. I sifted through the pictures, taking my favourites out and sticking them to the walls by the bed and around the mirror. As predicted, there were three pristine new dresses waiting in the closet, one red and two black, all silk and corsets. I used them as a cover for the long garment bag, intent on wearing only my own clothes for as long as possible.

Also waiting for me was a light grey hooded cloak.

This made it final.

I laid the cloak out on my bed. Beside it I placed a photo of the whole family which Jacob had taken about two weeks ago, on Esme’s birthday. I put my hand between them, separating them.

Two different worlds. Two different people. Never to touch.

A loud beeping startled me, and I realized I had forgotten about the cell phone in my duffel bag; the one thing I hadn’t unpacked. I dug through it until I found the phone.

52 missed calls and 29 text messages. All from Edward.

I sighed and started to cycle through them.

He had given up leaving messages after the 25th call, and all the texts were begging me to come home, or call him. It made my heart ache to read them, but I never once thought about hitting delete. These desperate pleas would be my only connection to him for who knew how long.

As I finished reading the last message, the phone buzzed again.

Mommy, it said.

Help! I don’t know what to do. We just got home, and you’ve been gone for days, and now your books are gone, and your clothes, and all the pictures. Daddy found a letter on the fire and now he’s crying. What’s wrong? Why is Daddy sad? Help me Mommy!

Ness

What could I say? What would reassure her? I hit reply.

Ask Daddy for the note with your name on it. I’ve just gone away for a while. Daddy will explain.

Please don’t text me again. Tell Daddy to stop too. It won’t help anything.

I love you.

Mommy

I pressed send just as a loud banging sounded on my door. I gasped and hid the phone under my quilt.

“Come in.” I called, trying to sound normal.

Jane stuck her head around the door. “It’s dinner time, newbie.”

“N-now?” My voice shook.

“Yes now,” Jane said, sounding exasperated. She came more fully into the room. “What are you doing up here anyway?”

She surveyed the room; the pictures, the clothes in the closet... the small lump under the sheets.

“What have we here?” she said, sneering. Her voice sounded horrible.

Faster than I could catch her, she darted over and pulled the phone out, just as it buzzed once more.

She flipped the phone open and I growled.

“Give it back Jane, that’s mine.” I snarled. She didn’t listen.

“Let’s see. OH!” Her cruel little smirk made yet another appearance. She chuckled.

“Mommy, don’t do this,” she read, putting on a ridiculous high voice. “I know I should be strong, but I can’t live without you. Daddy won’t even talk to me. There must be some way you can get away. Please come home! Nessie.” She laughed. “How precious! The little one wants you back. Well, she’s going to have to get used to disappointment then, isn’t she?”

With that, Jane flipped the phone shut, held it up, and slowly crushed it between her fingers. The plastic popped and the circuits cracked, and I snarled again. She just smirked.

“Oopsie!” she said.

That did it.

I roared, launching myself at her with all my strength. She squealed and fled, but I caught her easily. We rolled down the stairs, snapping and snarling at each other, wrestling for control. At the bottom, I pinned her into the floor, holding her throat in my hand.

“Isabella!” someone shouted, and my head snapped up. Aro was standing there, a shocked look on his face. I jerked up, still defensive. Jane got to her feet, straightening her rumpled clothes.

“Would one of you like to explain to me what is going on here?” he asked, and the same tone was in his voice as earlier; like he was talking to misbehaving school children.

“She attacked me!” Jane screeched, pointing an accusing finger at me. I growled.

“Isabella.” Aro cautioned. I took a deep breath.

“I’m sorry Master,” I said, trying not to snarl, “I still have a little trouble controlling my temper.”

“Granted, but there is no smoke without fire, so to speak. Was there a reason you got angry at Jane?”

“I...” I hesitated. Did I really want to say this? I decided I didn’t have a choice.

“I forgot that I still had my old cell phone in my bag. Edward’s been trying to contact me, and when Jane came in, she found the phone right when he sent me another message. She read it out, and then she broke it. I got angry. It’s as simple as that.”

Aro nodded. “That makes sense. It is often difficult to channel our anger. Jane, you will apologise to Isabella for breaking her phone.”

Jane glared at me. “Sorry,” she spit through her teeth.

“Now Isabella, I trust you do not have any other communication devices.”

“No Master.”

“Good,” he smiled, “then we can proceed. This way ladies.”

He held his hand out for us to go ahead of him. Jane stalked past me towards the little door halfway down the hall.

I recognised that door. All of a sudden, I couldn’t move. Aro was still watching me curiously. “Something wrong Isabella?” he asked.

“Master, I... I don’t know if I will be able to join you.” I whispered.

“Come now Isabella, it’s only natural.”

“Yes Master, but still... I’ve never... never killed a person before... ever. I don’t know... if I can... change who I am... just because I have changed my life.” I was very hesitant, not wanting to make him angry at me.

I felt a feather light hand on my shoulder, and looked up. Aro was looking at me, his eyes full of his own brand of kindness.

“I understand Isabella. You don’t want to disappoint your former family.”

I winced when he said ‘former’. He pretended not to notice.

“But you understand that we can’t provide you with the nourishment you are accustomed to. We simply don’t have the facilities. I’m afraid it’s this or nothing.”

I shook my head. Not wanting to face the truth.

“I’m sorry Isabella. Truly I am.” He seemed lost in thought for a second. “Give me a day or two. I’ll try to work something out. I can’t promise you your usual diet, but I can try to find a way that you won’t find difficult.”

I stared at him. “You’d really do that for me?”

“Of course!” he smiled, “I told you, I want you to be comfortable here. Now why don’t you go back up to your room? They will be starting soon, and I’m sure you don’t want to be around for that.”

I bowed to him. “Thank you Master. I am truly grateful.”

Then I turned and darted back up the stairs, to my little room.

The closest thing I had to home.

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Chapter 4: One Last Look

Chapter 4: One Last Look
“How much farther?” Demitri moaned. We had switched places after we passed Seattle an hour earlier, so I was now leading him. It didn’t feel right, showing him where I lived, but I couldn’t avoid it; he had been ordered never to let me out of his sight except for when I was in the house.

“Not much farther.” I sniffed, and the myriad of scents hit me like a bulldozer. I focused on the trail I was following; all our family, mixed together, but with Edward, Nessie, Jacob and I strongest and most prominent. “Can you smell that?” I called to him, “We’re almost there.”

He just huffed and continued to follow me.
About five minutes later, we reached the little clearing of the cottage. I could see the confusion on Demitri’s face.

“What is it?” I asked.

“I thought you all lived together closer to town. This place looks like it could barley hold one person, let alone nine, and we’re miles from the trails.”

I sighed and jumped down from the trees. There was no sound of movement inside; no one was in.

“We don’t all live here,” I corrected him. “This is just for our little family; just me and Renesmee and Edward.”

“Oh.” he seemed startled. I sighed again and went to the door. It was unlocked.

“Wait here,” I told him sternly, “I won’t be long.”
Once inside I took a moment to breath in the scents, committing them to memory. Then I hurried down the corridor to our bedroom. I pulled the smallest of the four suitcases off of the top shelf in the closet and began to pack some of the more sensible things in my clothing collection. I skipped over most of the white garment bags and their various silk and satin occupants, opting instead for jeans and plain cotton shirts. I was sure Aro would decide to treat me to some new clothes anyway, so what was the point in packing tons of stuff I wouldn’t wear.

I took only one bag down. Slightly greyer than the others, and still smelling faintly of Charlie’s house, the bag containing my wedding dress stood out from the others, largely because it had a rack all to itself and a big white ribbon tied round the hanger. I folded it carefully into the case, and then moved on to the living room.

I took all my books off the shelf, leaving only a much abused Romeo and Juliet behind. Going to the bottom shelf, I took out three books from the stack of photo albums.

One was my old scrapbook, finished off with graduation photos alongside the snapshots from September. I had of course replaced all the pictures Edward had taken out once he returned them to me.

The second was a small, one picture per page album of wedding photos.

Last was Nessie’s baby book. It was stuffed with three years worth of photos, which had actually been taken over six months. Every phase of her childhood was in there, along with lots of pictures of the rest of the family, including me. My favourite page was one titled ‘The First Time I Met Daddy’, which had four pictures of Edward holding Nessie when she was only a day old.

I slipped the photos into the top flap of the case and zipped it shut. Now came the hard part.

Aro had sent me back to my room to wait for Demitri, and I had used the time to write a short letter. I took it out of my pocket and read it over one last time.

Edward,
I am so, so sorry. I will never forgive myself for what I am doing, but I don’t have a choice.
It’s the Volturi. They found out about Charlie. Jane caught me leaving Tanya’s, and she says that just showing myself to him is breaking the rules. They were going to kill him, unless I joined them. I don’t want to, but I can’t let him be hurt because of me.
I wish there was another way, but I can’t see it. We can’t protect him without really revealing ourselves, and we can’t fight them alone. There is no choice, no alternative.
I will miss you, all of you, with all my heart. I will be thinking of you every second.
Look after yourself. For Nessie; she needs you. And for me.
I love you. Forever. Never forget that.
Goodbye my love.
Bella

I sealed the letter into its envelope, along with a short note for Nessie.

Renesmee,
I am very sorry that I have to go away. I don’t know when I will come back, or if I will come back at all, but I don’t want you to be unhappy. You have to be strong.
Look after Daddy for me. You are all he has left now.
Never forget; wherever I am, however long we are apart, we will always be together in our hearts.
I love you, my little nudger.
Mommy

I propped the envelope up on the fire place, then heaved the suitcase off the floor and took one last look around my home. Then I walked out, closed the door, and turned my back on Bella Cullen.